this kept me for the night

this is a harder toll than it should
no amount of tea or coffee can make me as restless
and these eyes won't shut until my mind can rest this
but can resolution be so sour?

these souls will kill me in my wake
to think of them as vulnerable as i've seen
if brotherhood feels like this
then is brotherhood brokenness untied?

if ignorance is bliss, then i'll stick with my hell
because i now know what happens when no-words do tell
all i can do now is beg for mercy and some questions
how does a heart not anticipate it's own heartbreak?