I Can't Find Myself

Where am I in your eyes?
Am I so small that I'm not there?
Can you hear me?
I'm standing here, alone in the crowd

I tried to be better
More than who I was
I tried to be more than satisfying
More than just myself
Can I be more than a fly, stuck on the walls of emptiness?

I can't be everything you've wanted
I can't be your hero
And I've come to realize that
But should I try harder?
Before loneliness gets the best of me?
Know that I'll never hate you
For who you are, and who you've been
Invisibility isn't me
I can't be just this

I'm calling out for you
I'm striving for your attention
Do you know my name?
Do you know where I am?
It's not you that needs me
It's me that needs you
Must it get anymore worse than it is?
As the pen wears out
I'm running out of things to say
Out of words to hold your breath

Am I nothing more to you?
Though I know that I stand with the world
With a God who's never short on time
The community is gone
I'm praying for a moment with you
A moment stuck in time
I'm screaming out
God, bring it back